Tuesday, August 09, 2005

A blessing!!!

that's me Vivek and Sargine at church last week took this on Jennifer's new phone..:)
Posted by Picasa that little guy Vivek plays guitar keyboard and sings like a professional..hes a true wonderkid

I was feeling down today and I put this as my status on yahoo messenger "I hate the gift of self-will and that wht screws my life"

This chechi(chechi is wht we call elder sisters in my language- its a sign of respect) I know saw this and spoke to me..she's a blessing to me.Thank you Lord for such wonderful people in my life
here's the transcript...I hope it helps others who go thru wht I'm goin thru

Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:56:52 AM): hey thomas!!!
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:56:55 AM): hey chechi
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:56:57 AM): how you doing
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:56:59 AM): been sometime
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:57:05 AM): i knw
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:57:09 AM): kind off busy
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:57:11 AM): stil busy
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:57:27 AM): but couldnt resist typing, whn i saw youer status bar!!
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:57:43 AM): ah..just random thoughts...
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:57:52 AM): wht happnd
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:57:59 AM): If I dint have that would I ever do anything wrong
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:58:19 AM): hellooooooooooooooooo
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:58:29 AM): tak in some lang: whihc normal people, understand
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:58:32 AM): wht hapnd
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:59:00 AM): ah if I dint have the ability to make my decisions
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:59:15 AM): I would have been well off just following God's commandments
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:00:30 AM): but thomas, each time u fall, rememebr u r learning to walk!!!! ... like the babies who try to walk initially.. so whn the baby gonna fall, jst watch, how the dad/mom run to hold babies hand.. How much more our heavnly father
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:01:09 AM): but I never learn to walk
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:01:16 AM): I hope I do soon
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:01:30 AM): its ok, some babies take a long time to walk (like me)
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:01:37 AM): Still dad waits...
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:02:34 AM): but guilt and fear kills me sometime though I dont show it outside
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:02:46 AM): ah u are not like me ..... u are far better than me chechi
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:03:35 AM): hey thomas!!!!! know tht guilt and diaapppointment are two major weopen devil uses aganist the believers
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:03:48 AM): Bible says, Oour God forgive and forgets.
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:04:04 AM): mmm I know all this its all in my head
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:04:04 AM): no dear, no one is better than any one.. its just pure grace tht all are like this
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:04:12 AM): Its not moving to my heart
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:04:22 AM): i knw .. it happens to me also many a time
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:04:32 AM): and i think to myself!!!
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:05:21 AM): u knw many a times, i know.. i am gonna sin, evn i pry, LORD... if i go there, i am sure, me gonna sin.. But still i end up doing/thinking whihc i'm not supposed to
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:06:06 AM): I know it is wrong..I know I'll fell bad once I do it...but I just turn my heart to stone and do it
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:06:18 AM): I'm one sick person sometimes
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:06:28 AM): ya same , thing evn i was trying to tel u
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:06:37 AM): not just u , me too
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:06:46 AM): but thts were HIS grace comes in place.
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:07:09 AM): His word says tht, evn if ur sin is like red.. he can turn it into white as snow
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:07:17 AM): u knw, HE knows us better
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:07:34 AM): Stil HE is patient enough to Handle us
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:07:46 AM): Just wait and tel LORD, i knew it...s til i did it...
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:08:04 AM): Tel me, we really dont wanna to.. but did it..
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:08:16 AM): MAn trust me, u can stil feel the gentle touch of the LORD
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:08:18 AM): i know chechi but I'm not quite able to get it in
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:08:30 AM): i knw.... happens...
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:08:51 AM): many a times i've gone thru situation like this ( remind u: many a times)
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:09:00 AM): many a times, i think.. i am fooling GOD
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:09:05 AM): and getting fooled myself..
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:09:19 AM): But u know.. He is slow to aner, companiate...
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:09:22 AM): Loving GOD
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:10:00 AM): I read the book of Jonah I kinda get the feeling that punishment is imminent
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:10:08 AM): and I dont know whts wrong with me
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:10:19 AM): I hope I get better
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:10:58 AM): today u talking like this, jsut coz... u really never wanna be in it
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:11:31 AM): s I guess
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:11:32 AM): u know THOMAS... if u still feel tht u did bad, just be happy tht, the HOLY SPIRIT Inside u, is telling uthis
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:11:56 AM): and HE is still working in YOU
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:12:19 AM): if Holy SPIRIT was not in u, u wil never feel tht u did wrong,
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:12:21 AM): rt??/
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:12:27 AM): s that is true
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:12:45 AM): so cheer boy!!!
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:12:56 AM): HE still needs u and HE is close to u
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:13:00 AM): s chechi
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:13:02 AM): HE wants to tel u something
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:13:14 AM): hmm
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:16:22 AM): thanx chechi....I feel better...I guess I shud spent more time in prayer and try not to repeat the same mistake again
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:17:29 AM): dont knw, whetehr u can pry now or not!!! but u can jst sit and talk to HIM
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:17:45 AM): coz me cant pry ... in such situations u c
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:18:17 AM): mmmm I think I can if I try to
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:19:55 AM): good, God Bless U dear,
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:20:21 AM): thank you chechi..u really are a blessing to me
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:20:47 AM): See, still it shows tht HE loves U moe than anyone...
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:20:57 AM): other wise , do u thiknk this BBUSY chechi wil talk to u
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:21:35 AM): s chechi I'm getting goosebumps and my eyes are getting wet
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:21:42 AM): love you
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:22:20 AM): Love u too dear. God Loves u above all, spend time with HIM.. HE waiting for u

Isnt she wonderful...thank God for her again


Bincy said...

I needed that.
I went through the same situation this weeked, and I talked to someone about this.
She said that God is not sitting there waiting for you to mess up. God is a forgiving God. So, just ask forgiveness and keep going.

Kaylis and Gavin Hansen said...

Exactly. You're only doomed if you choose to stay down. It doesn't matter how many times you fall as long as you get up. I'm living proof of this - lol.

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Anika said...

Thank you for the kind words -- your blog is so cool, by the way! -- Nunzia is in the hospital right now. I'm going to see her today -- please pray for God's mercy and love to break through to her, for Him to protect her and keep her safe. I know she appreciates your encouragement, and how much more so your prayers.

Damian said...

Yea, u hit the nail on the head. Sometimes you know its wrong and if you go you will sin but you end up doing it and then feeling lower than dirt, that you failed God - u even think its too hard and God is wasting his time wit you. I have those moments too i just pray that they are not many and to stop totally. Take care i'll pray for you.

Lovely Almond said...

wow.. tht's wonderful..I just rmbrd a conversation that I had with someone along the same lines..when I went through resonating spirals about falling down the place I faltered at the millionth time..God IS really wonderful..
"Not by works lest any man should boast.. but by HIS grace we have been saved..."