Impressions

Rain

2011-11-08T19:43:00.001+05:30

The all drenching monsoon rain is a refreshing spectacle, especially for those who spend their day talking numbers within the high walls of the concrete jungle. The unexpectedness of the first rains brings out the joyfulness of nature, enriching all that lives with the drizzle, however mighty or not so. Yesterday’s incessant rain in the evening (in Trivandrum), brought out the tangential realities of life.

The farmer who considers the rain his lifeline, the slum dweller who views rain with a tint of doubt, as to the comfort of his shanty home, the school boy who wants to wet his shoes and splash the puddle, the corporate executive who looks at the beauty of the rain from his high rise office suite, the homeless man on the street who searches for a cosy shelter, the traffic police man who dusts his old Police issue raincoat, the auto rickshaw driver who cautiously threads to city roads and the weather man who predicts with uncertain certainty the extend of the rain.

One common fact, very different realities, but life goes on..

Glutton ? Me .. ?

2010-09-04T11:52:00.003+05:30

A month ago, I set out on the GM diet journey, a road less travelled by the likes of me, who love a full three or maybe four meals a day. At the back of my mind I always knew I was eating more than what I needed to sustain my earthly body, but I did not expect this much.
The revelation was too much that, I was forced to think how much of the food I take is just quench my taste buds !
Among the hundreds of thousands who live without one full meal a day in my own country and millions of others around the globe, I though I should be ashamed to gorge on food like a pig !
Well... here is a reckoner to me and to all like me...
"Put a knife to your throat if you are given to gluttony" - Proverbs 23:2
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Mr. Fix it

2010-01-31T19:57:00.005+05:30

Lately, I've been watching too much TV, and Agent Seely and Dr Brennen from the Sitcom Bones have proved interesting to me!

Last night, Agent Seely made an observation "It's me who fix things ; it makes me feel one with the universe."

It made me think loud; and yes even I feel its my prerogative to fix things being the man of the house; Where were wired this way by the maker,with an obsession to fix things; and a bloated, pride filled head once we fix things ?

I've owned a small tool kit from as long as I can remember; and honestly, among my friends I was the most mechanically/technically impaired when it came to fixing things? Even so, I did a lot of 'fixing' around the house, for my mom, for my sister, but I don't remember ever being asked by my Dad to 'fix'. Well, maybe, he did not need my help. Well, in any case, I've been taught a lot of 'fixing' by him, like how to change a broken roof tile, or remove a broken nail and hammer in a new one, de-husk a coconut,or do small repairs on the cycle or bike.

And ironically enough we bought a new kitchen rack at home yesterday; I fitted the whole thing and the "satisfaction" I got out of it made me think, maybe we men were wired by our Maker to work/mend/repair or fix.

Agent Seely, maybe you are right? It does make us feel fulfilling a purpose!

Time is ticking away

2009-02-22T10:53:00.005+05:30

'Time and tide waits for no man..' so the adage goes. Every second passes by never to come back to us again. Time does not look back, it always looks to the future. Time travel and fixing the past are stuff of legend...but reality looks at us starkly with sarcasm in it's eyes; telling us wryly every second you let go is a lost resource.

I've been living the lazy life of a typical bachelor for a few weeks now, keeping me on he couch in front of the TV the long hours after work. It was during one of the really lazy hours that I chanced upon the Autobiography of Rev. Martin Luther King Jr. The man who brought the nation we all know as the defender of Justice to look into her own hypocrytic double standards. He achieved so much in so less time. It was God's way of telling me, fatigue can tire my weak body not my soul, and I should do much more than what I'm doing now.

I'm reminded of this verse as if its adressed to me :
"Go to the ant, thou sluggard; consider her ways, and be wise:" - Proverbs 6:6

Happiness

2008-11-02T08:16:00.005+05:30

I met these kids in Hyd during a traffic Jam and I couldnt help myself but smile, when I saw the happiness on their faces..... for a moment I thought;What does these Children have to be happy ???? good food ? rich parents ? good toys to play with ? good cosy homes ? hot dinners ?

I leave you all to ponder with one little thought..

God cannot give us a happiness and peace apart from Himself, because it is not there. There is no such thing. - C S Lewis

Who am I ??

2008-10-19T01:47:00.004+05:30

Well.... the other day I was standing in Queue at my office canteen, and I saw this boy serving tea. He was about my age, my height.. a lil more fairer thn me, and spoke my mother tounge , and so he was from my state.

And it made me think... what did I do more to get this white collared job and what did he not do, not to get it, absolutly NOTHING.......

Is it my merit that I was born into an educated family? Is it my merit that my parents had enough money to pay for my college? Is it my merit that the job market was good when I passed out and I got a job ? Is it my merit that my state had good educational institutions?

The answer is always NO

"I was cast upon thee from the womb: thou art my God from my mother's belly." Psalm 22:10

That was my cry when I got out of my canteen !!

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You're

Casting Crowns

Grandma's note....

2008-07-27T10:27:00.004+05:30

This is what my grandma wrote to me for my 23rd bday; I just want to post this again !

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My dear Renji mon,
Wish you a very very happy and blessed birthday.May our Lord shower all His abundant blessings upon you,throughout this year and the years to come.Keep your eyes on the Lord. He never takes His eyes off you.When we keep our eyes on Christ, obstacles become opportunities.To know ,to love and to live for God is the desire of a renewed sanctified soul.Pray well. He stands best who kneels most.Prayer is a child's helpless cry to the father's attentive ear. All who are born of God should develop a likeness to their father. Live like a flower by spreading fragrance.
May our loving and living Lord bless you physically & spiritually. Praying for you fervently.
Yours affectionately,
Amma

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she is in ICU now and going thru a difficult time.. do remember her in prayers.

--- Update

She just passed away .....

Arthaśāstra or so it seems !

2008-07-19T22:47:00.002+05:30

Recently, the US Deputy Secretary of State John Negroponte was quoted saying this : “there are no permanent enemies,”. Does that also mean there are no permanent friends ?

Reading that in the newspaper I was reminded of Kautilya's (Chanakya) satement centuries ago "There is some self-interest behind every friendship. There is no friendship without self-interests. This is a bitter truth."

In a time when we as a nation are taking about the Nuclear Agreement (123 Agreement). Can we trust someone who says there are no permanent enemies/ friends ? Our leadership need to choose their friends carefully or we might cease to exist a soverign state !

PS : I have no idea what the Nuclear deal is all about :) !!! The pros and cons are for our policy makers to debate and decide !

#****#

2008-04-08T10:45:00.002+05:30

എന്‍റെ ആദ്യത്തെ മലയാളം പോസ്റ്റ്.
സഹോദരി സഹോദരന്മാരെ, നിങ്ങള്‍ക്ക് നമസ്കാരം. മലയാള സാഹിത്യ സംസ്കരിക ലോകത്തെ ഞാന്‍ ഞെട്ടിക്കാന്‍ പോകുന്നു.
നന്ദി !

Jewel in the Crown

2008-02-29T00:26:00.012+05:30

Well....that's what I would like to call Delhi.... the capital of my country. 'twas my first visit Feb 19- 24 to Delhi, and definitely not my last ! So what did Delhi have to offer ?

This first picture is that of Qutab Minar . The minar complex is in Mehrauli South Delhi. Completed by several genarations of Sultans who ruled India. This stands as a testament to Indo- Islamic Architecture. The entire complex stands on what used to be Jain Temples. Jain figurines can still be seen

on certain stones on the minaret. Intricate carvings in Arabic make the minaret exotic and beautiful to look at. Allaudin another sul

tan, who ruled India wanted to make another minar that surpassed the glory of Quatab Minar. Unfortunately he died when the minar was being constucted and the work stopped. The complex also has a metalurgical marvel - The Ashoka Pillar. Built during the reign of the greatest king of the Mauryan Dynasty. Till date nobody has been able to find what this is made of . Delhi has a number of Forts, the Old Fort and the Red Fort are of prime importance and are seen as a symbol of the strength of the Mughal empire. The forts were used by different armies, the Indian Army continues to occupy a part of the forts, while the rest are open to visitors. The Fort was occupied by Sikhs, the British after the first war of Indian Independence and later by the Indian Army. In 1947, Pandit Jawaharlal Nerhru hoisted the Indian National flag over Red Fort on 15th August delcaring indepedence from the British.

The fort was built by Emperor Shah Jahan, and was the capital of the 7th Muslim city on Delhi soil. This is from where Emperor Shah Jahan used to give his public audiences. The fort also had Shah Jehan's Palace as well has palaces for his favourite wives.

Well.. there is a lot more in store.. will post em in the coming days !

Dress Code or DisComfort ???

2008-01-26T00:10:00.000+05:30

Being presentable is one thing; and being a lil foolish is another.

Disclaimer : Dearest Boss, if you ever see this! I have no problem in dressing up as 'professional' as possible to work everyday !

As man evolved he started wearing clothes to protect him from the elements of weather, to keep himself safe at his workplace (hunter / warrior) and at some point as a mark of his status in society.

All this is true to the last word even today.. wearing a neck tie, full sleeved shirts (blue or white) perfectly polished shoes all perfectly answer all the above, even in a tropical country like mine; wearing a tie can be justified as we work in Air Conditioned environments ! Though its a discomfort, it ain't logically unwarranted !

A necktie at a client site or a meeting is totally understandable; but why on a sunny day? Well I guess if we forget the neckties we could save power keeping the air conditioning low or probably off ! Being clean and neat and making a neutral fashion statement is all facets of professional attire, but do we see the good we can do if we get over these !

Crazy, Confused, Conflicting thoughts..but someone would get something from this.. I hope !

Machtpolitik

2008-01-13T09:09:00.000+05:30

It's not like me to sit at home on a Sunday morning.. 'bunking' church... but then today I felt I needed to be alone and be with my God rather than go to my church.

This post is on quite a subtle subject, I would like to let all my readers know that ; its just what my heart says and I don't intend to put down anybody!

Well.. what is a Church ? Isnt it a 'family' of believers... or a group of believers who live a family ? Arnt we the body of Christ ?

Saint Paul makes this clear in I Cor 12 .. An ardent follower of Christ would be moved to tears reading that passage.

What would happen if the different parts of our body play politics ?? Switching sides and playing dirty tricks on each other ??? How would it be if our stomach sides with the right limbs and the lungs with the left ??? Will we ever survive ? How would it be if the brain decides that its the
most superior organ and decides to cut off
and remove the other body parts ? Will it survive ??????

Arnt we fighting each other holding the same banner ? the banner of Christ ! ( if ever we are holding it .... or do we have our own banners ? )

I've been troubled in my heart for a couple of years or even more now... Must be from the time I
started to understand people. I love my church. The church where my parents brought me first
after I was born.. the church where I went to Sunday school... the church were I was born again... yeah I was born again at a traditional CSI (Anglican) church ! the church where I confessed my faith and became part of the body of Christ !

I'm deeply saddened when people, rather believers ..do not walk the talk ... and use masks... and live double lives.. The games they play would put the shrewdest politician to shame !

All for power ? How insane ! How sad ! How Shameful ! What would become of our testimony as
followers of Christ !

How long will we be man pleasers and not God-pleasers ? How long will we use (abuse) church for personal gain ?
How long will we play power politics ? Our God is someone who sees our hearts and not what we do in public. Inspite of all his infirmities God could see David's heart when He said " Here's a man after my own heart ! "

How long will we be hypocrites ? How long can we have our way and save ourselves from the wrath of God ! May God have mercy upon us and our brethren !

Hoping for a better day !

Thank you Lord !!!

2007-12-06T08:29:00.000+05:30

For them that honour me I will honour.--1 Samuel 2:30

The footballer in the pic is AC Milan midfielder Kaka won the Ballon d'Or award — the Golden Ball.

Kaka is also a favourite to be named world player of the year by FIFA, soccer's world governing body, when the award is announced later this month.

That is exactly how God honours those who honour and stand for Him in Public. So never be ashamed of being a Jesus Freak.

The Race

2007-10-15T07:40:00.000+05:30

Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. ( Phil 3:13,14 )

A little from what I spoke on Sunday at church.......

Christian life that's very much like a running race.

1. Christian life is a continuous process, a process of becoming strong, new and blameless.

2. Christian life is not a lazy life, its not about looking left or right... its about keeping your eyes at the finishing line.

3. Christian life is a life with Christ, and you're never alone.

4. Christian life has a goal, the crown of life from our Lord .. Jesus Christ !

Bangalooreeeeeeed

2007-02-13T09:43:00.000+05:30

I recently read an article in a leading business weekly which said: ' Americans thought that their jobs were being 'Bangalooreeed' '.

I was in bangalore last weekend... and yea it was fun to meet my friends who work there in the software industry (most of them) . Life is not all that bright in bangalore , and it was a time to reflect on the age old Maxim ' All that glitters is not gold' . The hype about bangalore is about the wealth and the unending possibilities of building up promising careers. Yea true..but what do u gain ? a question I wanted to ask myself again and again and again!!!

People may call it the new world order....On one side I see material prosperity ; On another abject poverty ; On one I see the colours of love ; on another the labyrinth of moral nothingness !!!!

It must be my socialist inclinations...but is the wealth we make distributed equally.... Yes opportunites are equal but we should check again....
"If at 20, you are not a socialist, you are heartless. But at 40, if you are a socialist, you are headless."
- Adi Godrej

So if I'm too much forgive me ...its probably my age !

The garden city is now dusty city. I did not find even one person who dint say it wasnt dusty, most people have cough and chest infections year round. As I see it, its all on managing the money we make and putting it in infrastructure and regulating it responsibly ; which is the only way to keep the city as Garden City.

So much for being bangaloored !!!!!!

He who fashioned this.....

2007-02-12T07:07:00.000+05:30

The other day, a friend of mine had this on as her msn status "Do I dare disturb the universe ?".

This pic was taken at Shangumugham beach in Trivandrum soon after sunset..look at the vastness of the skies..and the colours of the evening ..What is man compared to that???

I would make my own status "Do I dare go against the rules the Creator of the universe put forth?"

waahhhhhh

2006-12-19T13:45:00.000+05:30

guys from my class
Originally uploaded by crossblade.

I miss my college..... I miss the wonderful frens I had there... I miss the care free evening strolls...I miss the boys and girls who stood by me... I miss the football field... I miss the bakery... I miss the hostel... I miss the prayer cell.. I miss the corporate worship... I miss ma classroom..... I miss the birthday bashes.... I miss the fights... I miss those exams..... I miss everything.........

life is soo short.... nothing lasts for long.... it just slips us even before we finish enjoying it.........

I just want to make every minute of my life.... every single second!!!
even these days of CHICKEN POX hehe.......

Ruth tagged me....

2006-12-04T22:30:00.000+05:30

I'm doing this for dear Ruth , who by the way is a gifted writer.

Yes, I was tagged :)Here are 25 things I want to do before I die. They are not necessarily in order of importance, just as I think of them...

1. fall in love with the beautiful godly girl, He has prepared for me.
2. Marry the beautiful godly girl, prepared for me.
3. Have children 3 boys and one girl.....
4. Win my nation for the Lord.
5. Watch my sons grow up to be Strong Men and my daughter into a Graceful Woman.
6. Bring up my children in the ways of the Lord.
7. To be loved and love the beautiful,godly girl God gives me.
8. Swim across the river Ganges.
9. Sky Dive & Bungee Jump
10. Scuba Dive
11. take 50 pullups in one go.
12. Join the Indian Foreign Service
13. Buy my parents a Ford before I'm 30 and dismantle the Fiat!!!!
14. Own some farmland by the time I'm 40.
15. Play the guitar and sing 'God is love; all the time' in front of all (1700 families) my church memebers...
16. Be able to say "as for me and my household, we shall serve the Lord'.
17. To be able to "freely give/share, that which I freely recieved"
18. To be in touch with my friends at 60 as much as I am with them at 24.
19. See my sister get married.
20. To learn to write Tamil and speak, read and write French.
21. Author my own anthology of Poems.
22. Visit Israel
23. Visit Shimla, Kashmir, Calcutta, Assam and atleast one European country.
24. Visit the Starners and the Wests atleast once, and my other blog buddies, Nunzia, Jamie, Damien.......
25. Be contented with what I have.

I'm tagging Queenmum

Backslider's Anthem....

2006-07-24T06:56:00.000+05:30

I wrote this for Radiantz....they're still working on the music..

Quality never goes out of style

2006-06-23T20:44:00.000+05:30

well...
I'm being bombarded on all sides on the importance of quality and what process quality is (at work, well even in college I did learn a lot about this) and blah blah blah....

and I've been thinking of of this... is it always true...doesnt it depend on the how we define quality??
and doesnt it sometimes become a necessary evil?
hindering creativity..if there is any....

It is imporant..... but to what extend??
does it really go out of style?

confused as usual..

a testimony......

2006-05-27T07:21:00.000+05:30

Last Tuesday(16th May) I wanted to go to church camp in Bangalore, a city in South India and I got ready...but my Dad said you don't go now.. your exams are approaching soon....your thesis work is not yet done.... you are not placed yet... God is a just God and He wants you to do things that are expected of you first..before you go out for Him...I was really bummed... I was little angry at my Dad too..but I took his advice half heatedly and stayed behind.... :)

and u know what ...out of the blue on Wednesday I got a call and email... saying that on Thursday 18th of May... I have a test and interview at US Technology Resources http://www.ustri.com/ (the biggest .... software company in kerala,my state) it was for Software Quality Assurance Engineer.
The interview was on the 18th and God gave me the job... isn't it wonderful how God works... If I had gone to Bangalore..I would not even have known of interview..cause I never check my mails while on travel...and I was planning not to take my cellphone...so I can be safe and free.. :)
I got the job on the eve of my birthday...it was God's birthday gift to me

God is so awesome..the job pays well... and is a good place to start a career..as the company has a real good corporate culture...

And for the first round of the selection process we had to do some English vocabulary and language correction and comprehension stuff..... and it was mostly complex...but God had made a provision by training me for that the previous day... my friend is in Australia doing his MS.... he wanted another girl a friend of us to help him work on his assignment..I mean..correct the grammatical errors....and she asked me to do it since she was tired and ill and not feeling well.....you know the practice I got, did help me in the test at the company...Isn't God awesome...HE knows what I need to improve and he gives me practice lessons.... And he used people in differnt parts of the world to do that for me.

sorie for the typos and grammar.... :)

God is blessing me Abundantly..I just cant keep quiet about it anymore....

I'll be joining on June 15th..do keep me in your prayers blog buddies

love

thomas

2006-04-08T11:10:00.000+05:30

this is a picture a sweet friend of mine Carthi drew....
well here's whats going on in my mind right now...

"I fear complacency, it's a luxuary I don't think I can afford!!! "

Well..I guess that's all for now..and I know, all my blog buddies would understand what I meant....

Love!!!!!!

2006-03-17T22:31:00.000+05:30

I recently recieved a forward, and it was about what little children thought about LOVE.....
Here is the one that touched me the most!!!

"Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day."
Mary Ann - age 4

There were more in the fwd, if any of my readers want it just leave me a message would be happy to pass it!!!!

Well, I dont know why it made me think this much..mabbe cause I own a dog and leave it alone all day, but by the end of the day it does cheer my up.....

meandering thougths........

2006-03-03T23:54:00.000+05:30

well...thats a picture with a message a dear friend of mine, Feni sent me....it says

There is no oil, if Olives are not squeezed

No wine, if grapes are not pressed

No perfume, if flowers are not crushed

Have u felt any pressure in life today?

Don't Worry

God is just bringing out the best in you!!

Isnt that amazing!!! thanks Feni, for the wonderful thought!!!

I'm missing my friends...some have gone abroad, some are planning to do so....

well.....that's life!!!!!!

So Renju got married last week....I posted some pics of the wedding on my Photo blog..the link is on the right panel...

Attitude!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-05T22:47:00.000+05:30

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"
Phillippians 4:13

Tagged!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-01-27T19:52:00.000+05:30

well, Neetie tagged me for this. I may break one of Neetie's tag rules..but I'm gonna do this anyway :)
so here it goes...............
8 Things I want in my perfect lover( life partner)

Sex of the partner == Female
1. Should be a born-again Christian and God-fearing, even more than I am and be an ardent student of the Bible.
2. Should be able to find the balance between the modern way of life and typical Indian values.
3. Should be able to understand me, and love and respect me and my decesions and feelings regardless of what I am. ( I make my point again- respecting is one thing ;obeying is another :) )
4.Should be a non-vegetarian, and should cook and should be willing to learn to cook (of course, I'd help her in the kitchen) .
5. Should treat my parents as her own, I'd promise her to do the same to her parents and live up to it.
6. Should be educated enough to teach our children and should be a working. Doesnt matter if she's engineer or not, but should work, not for the money but the self-respect and esteem it would give her.
7. Should be a mallu and speak atleast as much malayalam as I do.
8. Would be wonderful if she's intersted in music and is a little athletic.
9. She can be related to me, but not through my Dad's family.
10.Should be fun-loving.. I mean the type of person I am.
11. well...She should look pretty. I dont want to lie and tell you that looks dont matter to me :)
12. Should be open to my career decesions, but should always trust n believe me in that she comes b4 that to me.

well there's lot more to add in this..guess I'd keep updating this...well anyway I'm still not sure ..he he ..to tell you people the truth I had a list written, but I threw it off..cause I was pretty much confused for one thing and then..I know.... God knows whts best for us..so why build our own castles..its all goin to be beautiful for those who love the Lord....any doubt anyone???

Defining a crush!!!

2006-01-11T21:25:00.000+05:30

well....let me start
What is a crush???
I asked myself this question for a long long time...contemplated on it for long ...... mabbe all my teens and now into my youth..but the best I came out with is
"A crush is the feeling you get at a good looking girl when u meet her for the first second or mabbe the 10th time"
then again I googled 'crush' and this is what I came up with "A usually temporary infactuation"

Where does this happen??
It can happen anywhere, anytime...a bus-stop , a classroom , church , the mall anywhere and I mean it!!!

How can this happen??
well that depends....but I jotted down some points, that crossed my mind...
1. You see a girl for the first time and feels she's the one..out of the blue!!!
2. A girl smiles and stares at you...somebody who you've know(like you who she is..the daugher of so and so.sister of so and so..) for long..but havent really talked to.
3. Your friends keep telling you she's the one for you(teasing..)
4. You bumb into someone and then ur eyes gets locked...

When can u get this??
Teens pre-teens, early 20's...but apparently even when u are 23!!!!

What can you do about it?? How to get over it??
1. Give it to the Lord in prayer....if its HIS will let it be done
2. Keep out of the her way... and try to fix priorities!!!
3. Tell your well meaning friends to pray about it!!!

And hey!!! if she's the one!!!! God will bring her to you..whatever happens...

So dear bloggers...by now you'd have understood my new trouble...cool follow the italics and you willl :) ha ha
being Thomas isnt all that easy!!! lol

I wish my backyard looked the same!!!!

2006-01-10T23:37:00.000+05:30

beatutiful!!!! that's all I can say....

Happy new year!!!!!!!!

2006-01-01T12:21:00.000+05:30

Boyish again!!!!!!!!

2005-12-11T13:52:00.000+05:30

I really don't know wht happened to me today at church. I was sitting there as usual and listening to the Pastor preach on repentance and the wages of sin and it was fine, my mind was just wandering though and I was just there physically present - mentally absent (well not recommended at church though..).. my parents and sister sitting near me.I looked out of the huge wodden windows and saw it was raining and it was beautiful.The pastor finished the message and was praying so I bowed down in the pew. Suddenly it struck me.... DO I GET TO BE A BOY NOW?? NOOOO....

gone are the days when I was soo carefree, nothing to worry about, when my grades and books were my mummys problem and not my own...I had an idea..I took my denim jacket and slowly, without anybody noiticing slipped out of church.....I really mean slid..much like in the good ol' days....

I knew I couldnt take the car cause my Dad had the keys and we come to church in toghther as a family in one car...and I dont know why but I dint notice the rain drizzling...well I enjoyed it..it was like I was 13 all over again....I just walked the roads of the my lovely city..I started appreciating the lovely buildings and the trees again...I walked like 2 kms to a "tattu kada" (any mallus around will understand) its like a hawker shop...I sat down..well then, my Mom doesnt like me eating from hawkers..
but well I was 13 again..werent I??? so I had my fill of Dosas and vadas.

and again walked in the rain to my home...all the time I had my cellphone off..(boyish and shewd!!) safe in my jacket, it made my day..rediscovering the boyishness in me...I wish I was a boy(the real Tom Sawyer stuff) again!!!!

Choices!!!!!!!

2005-11-19T23:28:00.000+05:30

well yesterday was the bypolls in my state...and I should put my voting plan like this......
"I voted for someone..cause I know another one wont win..and I wanted someone else to loose"
well if anybody from my constituency read this they mite understand..but I'm not sure........

Am I there yet???

2005-11-05T23:21:00.000+05:30

well..I've been thinking of posting for quite sometime...well thank you Ruth and Nunzia for encouraging me to post :)

Tomorrow another friend of mine Eldhose is getting married..this is the second wedding among my grad class friends in less than a month..Suddenly, I feel I'm getting old...I feel I'm old enough to take responsibilites..then again as I disect my "self" NO NO NO.......I'm too young for commintment..too young to take
'that decesion'....

"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven" Ephesians 3:1,
I do believe in that...so a happy married life to Eldhose and his bride...and to Riza and Reejo!!!!

you all could check out the the Photos of the wedding at my photo blog...the link is on the side panel.....

I leave you all with this quote:
"God wispers to us in our pleasures,speaks to us in our conscience,but shouts to us in our pains;it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world"
--C S Lewis

God bless all my blogger buddies, prayers for all...and thanks to bayol and queenmum and everybody whos praying for me :)and commenting on me :)

Lean patch!!!!!!!!

2005-10-08T15:03:00.000+05:30

It's been like almost a month since I posted on blogger...It sounds strange that it would take so long to post a blog..give that, I have access to da net 24/7 at home and college..but this is something a hectic semester can do to anyone...I've just started and its like the last 7 months of my masters education...I dont know if I'll ever go to college again after this...but I'm enjoy and loathe every single moment of it...
The past couple of weeks taught me, that life is never a bed of roses...It's a mixture an aviyal( mallus would know wht this is..a typical south indian dish with practically any combination of vegetables)..the edge lies always in how you take it..how you look at it....and how you react to it...
I found this wonderful verse some days back

Proverbs 15:13--- A glad heart makes a cheerful countenance, but by sorrow of heart the spirit is broken.

How true is it..I just praise God!! I just cant stop doing it..In spite of all my troubles and the hard work I'm forced to put in college..I know I'm preveleged than a whole lot of people..the good Lord has blessed me..as I type this on to my PC my eyes are getting wet..I know, Lord you are touching me!!!
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so my dear blogger buddies, I just cant wait to read all ur blogs and comments....I just hope my blog goes back to the good old times...
love you all

The Generation Gap!!!

2005-09-09T10:17:00.001+05:30

yea!!!! today morning I had a good long chat with my Dad...He wanted me to go with him to supervise the maintence work of the apartments he owns and has given for rent..

This made me think a level further.I was thinking how different I was from my Grandpa or my appa. My grandpa came from our village and settled in this big city..got a bureaucartic job and was happy with it..He saved every penny he earned and made a fortune by( middle class Indian standards for my father and his siblings) he built houses and gave them for rent..purchased property in prime locations...

My appa too did a little of that He built two houses bougth some appartments and we still live in my mother's modest ancestral property.He doesnt spent as much as me or my sis does..I must say even on Petrol...so is my mom..

But look at me!! I dont have a single penny from my job as savings and I love a carefree life and live on an allowance from my parents at their home..and even when I get a job I dont think...I'll live the way they did..I love them ..I know they do love me soo much back too..mabbe even more than I do love them....

I think its the consumerist mentatily of my generation that need to be curbed to an extend ..but not too much though..I think I need to know and keep the limits..

I thank God for blessing my family sooo very much and I should say I better start living a life thinking of the grace showerd by God on us...I pray HE gives me a wonderful life

God bless all you dear bloggers too

Greedy..Stupid... me?? What is wrong with me ??

2005-08-28T00:24:00.000+05:30

Why do I want to get a job in Bangalore? Why do I want this year (acc) year to finish off fast ? Why do I keep thinking of wht I will be next year ? Why do I keep planning I year in advance ?Why do I want to move out of home ? Why do I hate going out with my parents? Why do I hate being ´alone´ ? Why do I crave food ?Why do I want to leave my parents ..the very people who gave birth to me..made me wht I am..the people who love me??Am I like the little birdie who just flies away from its nest!! The last I saw the mirror I was still human...Oh good Lord wht is the matter with me!!!!!

Is it cause I want to get all those goodies I ´want´? Is it cause I want freedom? Is this wht everybody goes through at some point? Do I think so? my Dad dint move out till he got married.. and my mom never moved out cause we live at her ancestral property...Is it cause I´m 23 and never been in a relationship?

Is this some new thing that the guys in my generation experience? Or am I plain greedy? Oh dear Bloggers!!!! you are my only hope....Please tell me I´m ok..Please tell me you still love me!!!

my desktop yesterday

2005-08-23T22:02:00.000+05:30

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This is just a test post...just trying to figure out how my blog will look like if I update from Linux...the browser is mozilla, and the OS is Mandrake 9.1...
the pics on the IM are me and my friend Johnsy...

Apples!!!!!

2005-08-20T18:18:00.000+05:30

Boys are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The girls don't want to reach for the good ones because they're afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead they just get the rotten apples that are on the ground, that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think that there is something wrong with them, when in reality, they are amazing. That is why we just have to be a little patient and the right girl, the one who takes a chance to find the good, right apple, will come someday...!!

Send this to all the boys who you know is at the top of the tree.So Guys if u are alone...this means that u r on top....so be confident and wait for your time. CheerzZ!

This came as an IM long back..I think it was either Nidhy or Riza who sent this to me..two great girls I met in college..and Riza is getting married in months..I had this saved on my desktop, saw it today though..I might as well share it with my dear blogger and xanga apples...lol..I guess it applies for rib apples too..lol

so there's an apple...I found so many pics of apples on da net..but this one seemed cool to my eyes..cause mabbe the apples I've ever seen and had looked like fast food..lol..they came in crates from North India(Kashmir or Himachal Pradesh) or from Europe..I live in tropical climate.so there it is..

I did pretty much nothing today....went to the swimming pool and it was closed for the day...so all of us came back and I've been waiting this friend of mine Aju..he was supposed to show up by now....

back to books again

2005-08-11T06:19:00.000+05:30

I've got an exam tomorrow.The exam that got postponed Human Resource Management.I pray I'm able to do well

Yesterday evening had been to church church.They have constitued a website committee and I am one of the memebers....lol. So God is having plans for me at church I believe , or mabbe not . I am yeilding to Him .Let Him lead me.

Here's Psalm 23 .. That's my fav pslam....If I ever were King David's contemporary, I'd have been his fan..lol

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that would have been how David threw Goliath down with the sling ( he mite have used his right hand )

Psalm 23

1 A Psalm of David. The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.
3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.
5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.
6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.

I've got to be with my HR books tomorrow, that postponed exam is day after tomorrow. Hope I do well . Keep me in prayer

A blessing!!!

2005-08-09T19:17:00.000+05:30

that's me Vivek and Sargine at church last week took this on Jennifer's new phone..:)
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I was feeling down today and I put this as my status on yahoo messenger "I hate the gift of self-will and that wht screws my life"

This chechi(chechi is wht we call elder sisters in my language- its a sign of respect) I know saw this and spoke to me..she's a blessing to me.Thank you Lord for such wonderful people in my life
here's the transcript...I hope it helps others who go thru wht I'm goin thru

Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:56:52 AM): hey thomas!!!
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:56:55 AM): hey chechi
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:56:57 AM): how you doing
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:56:59 AM): been sometime
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:57:05 AM): i knw
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:57:09 AM): kind off busy
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:57:11 AM): stil busy
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:57:27 AM): but couldnt resist typing, whn i saw youer status bar!!
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:57:43 AM): ah..just random thoughts...
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:57:52 AM): wht happnd
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:57:59 AM): If I dint have that would I ever do anything wrong
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:58:19 AM): hellooooooooooooooooo
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:58:29 AM): tak in some lang: whihc normal people, understand
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 5:58:32 AM): wht hapnd
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:59:00 AM): ah if I dint have the ability to make my decisions
thomascris (8/9/2005 5:59:15 AM): I would have been well off just following God's commandments
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:00:30 AM): but thomas, each time u fall, rememebr u r learning to walk!!!! ... like the babies who try to walk initially.. so whn the baby gonna fall, jst watch, how the dad/mom run to hold babies hand.. How much more our heavnly father
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:01:09 AM): but I never learn to walk
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:01:16 AM): I hope I do soon
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:01:30 AM): its ok, some babies take a long time to walk (like me)
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:01:37 AM): Still dad waits...
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:02:34 AM): but guilt and fear kills me sometime though I dont show it outside
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:02:46 AM): ah u are not like me ..... u are far better than me chechi
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:03:35 AM): hey thomas!!!!! know tht guilt and diaapppointment are two major weopen devil uses aganist the believers
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:03:48 AM): Bible says, Oour God forgive and forgets.
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:04:04 AM): mmm I know all this its all in my head
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:04:04 AM): no dear, no one is better than any one.. its just pure grace tht all are like this
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:04:12 AM): Its not moving to my heart
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:04:22 AM): i knw .. it happens to me also many a time
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:04:32 AM): and i think to myself!!!
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:05:21 AM): u knw many a times, i know.. i am gonna sin, evn i pry, LORD... if i go there, i am sure, me gonna sin.. But still i end up doing/thinking whihc i'm not supposed to
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:06:06 AM): I know it is wrong..I know I'll fell bad once I do it...but I just turn my heart to stone and do it
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:06:18 AM): I'm one sick person sometimes
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:06:28 AM): ya same , thing evn i was trying to tel u
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:06:37 AM): not just u , me too
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:06:46 AM): but thts were HIS grace comes in place.
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:07:09 AM): His word says tht, evn if ur sin is like red.. he can turn it into white as snow
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:07:17 AM): u knw, HE knows us better
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:07:34 AM): Stil HE is patient enough to Handle us
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:07:46 AM): Just wait and tel LORD, i knew it...s til i did it...
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:08:04 AM): Tel me, we really dont wanna to.. but did it..
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:08:16 AM): MAn trust me, u can stil feel the gentle touch of the LORD
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:08:18 AM): i know chechi but I'm not quite able to get it in
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:08:30 AM): i knw.... happens...
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:08:51 AM): many a times i've gone thru situation like this ( remind u: many a times)
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:09:00 AM): many a times, i think.. i am fooling GOD
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:09:05 AM): and getting fooled myself..
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:09:19 AM): But u know.. He is slow to aner, companiate...
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:09:22 AM): Loving GOD
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:10:00 AM): I read the book of Jonah I kinda get the feeling that punishment is imminent
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:10:08 AM): and I dont know whts wrong with me
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:10:19 AM): I hope I get better
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:10:58 AM): today u talking like this, jsut coz... u really never wanna be in it
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:11:31 AM): s I guess
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:11:32 AM): u know THOMAS... if u still feel tht u did bad, just be happy tht, the HOLY SPIRIT Inside u, is telling uthis
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:11:56 AM): and HE is still working in YOU
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:12:19 AM): if Holy SPIRIT was not in u, u wil never feel tht u did wrong,
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:12:21 AM): rt??/
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:12:27 AM): s that is true
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:12:45 AM): so cheer boy!!!
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:12:56 AM): HE still needs u and HE is close to u
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:13:00 AM): s chechi
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:13:02 AM): HE wants to tel u something
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:13:14 AM): hmm
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:16:22 AM): thanx chechi....I feel better...I guess I shud spent more time in prayer and try not to repeat the same mistake again
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:17:29 AM): dont knw, whetehr u can pry now or not!!! but u can jst sit and talk to HIM
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:17:45 AM): coz me cant pry ... in such situations u c
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:18:17 AM): mmmm I think I can if I try to
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:19:55 AM): good, God Bless U dear,
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:20:21 AM): thank you chechi..u really are a blessing to me
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:20:47 AM): See, still it shows tht HE loves U moe than anyone...
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:20:57 AM): other wise , do u thiknk this BBUSY chechi wil talk to u
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:21:35 AM): s chechi I'm getting goosebumps and my eyes are getting wet
thomascris (8/9/2005 6:21:42 AM): love you
Joice Mary Titus (8/9/2005 6:22:20 AM): Love u too dear. God Loves u above all, spend time with HIM.. HE waiting for u

Isnt she wonderful...thank God for her again

Peace....

2005-08-06T18:25:00.000+05:30

Hiroshima......
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The remains....
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Today is the 60th anniversary of the Hiroshima bombings..I just wanted everyone to remember that in prayer and hope that such mass destruction never happens again.
God be with you all
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Intership was fine today,the manager was kinda busy today with some meeting so I dint have much to do.Prayers
Thomas

Internship Blues.......

2005-08-05T23:56:00.000+05:30

My first day at internship wasnt very pleasant, but by God's grace I was a lot better at the end of the day. The good thing was even though circumstances were against me, He was with me, I dint loose my cool even once and everyone I met were good to me by God's grace.

I had 2 offers for internship and it so happened that all two wouldnt give me the required information.In addition to working for them, I am supposed to generate a report about the organisation by the end of the month, and all three wouldnt disclose their financial statements

I found this out around 12:00 noon from both the firms. The HR executive at the first company was a young pretty lady probably in her late 20's she me all other information other than Financial statements.

So I went to this other firm and the Vice-President HR too was kind he too obliged to help me and promised me even the audited financial statements.I was quite happy and called up my guide at college.To my surprise he wasnt happy, he said the second firm has just 100 coders working with then and its not a large company.

So finally by 3:00 pm I got permission at the State Bank of Travancore , the largest nationalised bank in my State.I badly wanted to work this month with a software firm as that was my area of interest.I firmly believe that God has better plans for me.Mabbe HE wanted me to get acquaited with some financial institution too after all I'm doin an MBA.

After which I came home and we practised for sunday's worship service at youth fellowship at my home.and now here I am tired and exhaused but thankful to God.I called my Dad almost 12 times today.He was very supportive everytime I had trouble today.I thank God for the wonderful gift my Dad is to me.

I actully started reading that book thinking it would help me at my intership,but now I find it intersting and I guess I'd take a paper on Software project management in the last semester.

I just want to share this verse with you:

"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end" Ecclesiastics 3:11

Thanks to all my xanga buddies for keeping me in prayer and for your wishes they mean a lot to me.Thank you Lord for making me tough and tired but not disheartened. Praise you Lord for the good internship you've given me.Jesus you are awesome.

A lazy day..but tough one's approaching

2005-08-04T12:29:00.000+05:30

Today was pretty much a free day..did very little work till now...I got my exam schedule for that postponed exam and its on August 12th.I got a call from the faculty co-ordinator for out internship, and I'm supposed to start tomorrow. I called the HR manager of the company and I shud be there tomorrow by 10.00 am . I just hope things are not too difficult for me there.
I just thought I'd read the book of Jonah today and finish it today.I should be starting it by 2.00....so off I go for lunch; then shud apply for the RBI Officers test and then I would be here at home reading Jonah.
A friend of my read this quote in his devotional book and sent it to me
"Do not pray for easy lives. Pray to be stronger men. Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers. Pray for powers equal to your tasks. Then the doing of your work shall be no miracle. But you shall be a miracle. Every day you shall wonder at yourself, at the richness of life which has come to you by the grace of God. Not in doing what you like but in liking what you do is the secret of happiness."
--James M. Barrie
ah..would put down wht I find beautiful in Jonah at nite..

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The amazing thing you find from the book is simple 'If God gives you directions and you dont follow, HE gives you free transportation to the place HE wants you to go.It would'nt be pleasant when God does that but HE will make you fullfill his will'

Looking at my life I find' I havent quite been obedient to God. Hope HE isnt harsh on me..I guess this holiday I got to read the book of Jonah was just to help me rewrite the wrongs in my life.Mabbe He's giving me another chace,hope I dont miss it.Praying for all my xanga buddies and others around..God be with you all,keep me in prayer too

My Grandma's note

2005-08-01T17:31:00.000+05:30

Praise God..my exams were fine today.I've got one more exam this semester and its over.The next and last paper is 'Human Resource Management' the university is yet to give us the dates.so got a couple of days to relax I guess...

I was arranaging my cupboard and found this note from my grandma.She wrote me this for my 23rd birthday.so here it goes...
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My dear Renji mon,

Wish you a very very happy and blessed birthday.May our Lord shower all His abundant blessings upon you,throughout this year and the years to come.Keep your eyes on the Lord. He never takes His eyes off you.When we keep our eyes on Christ, obstacles become opportunities.To know ,to love and to live for God is the desire of a renewed sanctified soul.Pray well. He stands best who kneels most.Prayer is a child's helpless cry to the father's attentive ear. All who are born of God should develop a likeness to their father. Live like a flower by spreading fragrance.

May our loving and living Lord bless you physically & spiritually. Praying for you fervently.

Yours affectionately,

Amma
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I thank God for such a sweet grandma that he gave me.Oh God!! you really care for me.

July 2005 is gone...never to come back again..

2005-07-30T23:28:00.001+05:30

Another month is fading away ,just a day more and it will be gone.Never to return again July 2005 will never come back to any of our lives,unless any of us acquires a time machine, well let's not rely on H G Wells such a thing does not exist, so the moments of glory,of joy,of love,of hate,of horror,of laziness,of mindless ennui, nothing will ever come back again.

I was thinking of the things I did last month,the good,bad and ugly ones,the time I used fruitfully and those which I just whiled away.It isnt a pleasant picture...lol

July was not great to the world as a whole; 2 major Bomb blasts,real heavymonsoons in the Indian peninsula and more which mustve missed my eyes.

I just wanted to paint of picture of wht july was to me,for my countrymen and for the millions of fellow human beings world wide.Please dont take me for a sick negative moron.There were good things too which happened.but for now let's think on the what should be done to make this world a better place.I may put a few little good things which influenced me a lot in between.May God touch ur hearts as u go thru these posts.I know it takes a lot of patience to read such a long post....lol please bear with me

July 3: Live 8: End Africa's Misery; G-8 Urged - Leaders of the world's richest nations have been warned that if they do not reach an agreement on "decisive'' steps to fight poverty in Africa at their summit in Scotland next week they would be guilty of "betraying'' the people of Africa.
July 5: Nasa probe smashes into comet!!! this may help us know the orgins of the solar system
July 6:Terrorists attack Ayodhya- thank God it dint result in rioting
July 7 & 17 ||| Babbar Khalsa network unearthed - this may bring about new suspisions among India and Pakisthan; Praise God it was unearthed before much damage was done..
London 2012
July 8:Terror attacks London
July 14:128 Killed in Pakisthan train mishap
July 16:9 Militants Killed - 9 Militants were killed while trying to infiltrate to Indian territory from Pakisthan in a 100 hr battle
July 17:India is not for sale - Prime Minister Manmohan Singh
July 20:Hurriath and pandits hold talks after 16 years - this is a huge step towards normalising the realions between Indian muslims and hindus in Indian Kashmir.
July 22: Panic in London
July 23: Innocent Brazilian man ; mistaken to be a suicide bomber shot dead in London
July 24: Blasts in Egypt kills 88
July 25: Security forces kill three children in Kashmir by mistake
July 26: Rioting in Gurgeon,India
July 27: 7 Killed in landslides in Munnar ,Kerala (my state)
July 28: Bombay High oil platform on fire 44 killed
Heavy Rain in Mumbai 100 dead - death toll still on the increase || over hundred villages marooned
July 29: IRA ends thirty years of armed struggle
July 30: Gen:Musharraf and Prime Minister Manmohan Singh to meet in Washington - this may be another step towards peace..
Here are reports of militant infiltrations and attacks in India just this month..there are 9 in 30 days ...that gives once every 3 days,this must mean that India is the worst affected country because of terrorism
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9
Pray for my country,pray that the extremists are not allowed to ingnite communal violence and hatred and destroy peace here. Most of these maybe important only from an India's point of view but they represent the suffering and the mindlessness of humanity as a whole..
Let's pray that the Lord will change the minds of our leaders and those with exteremist convictions and protect our lands and our lives.The word of God says 'knock and it shall open' let us knock ; as the SCC song goes Let us pray (2) every hour and every day..

I've got an exam on Monday,Maketing Management shud get back to my books,God bless you all, thanx for the patient reading

God is gracious!!!!

2005-07-29T16:58:00.000+05:30

Peace....
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God's grace was all over me today.....
the subject was Finace Management and with my background of engineering it was really tough for me,I reached the exam hall on time and started my paper,I saw and there was this case study for which we had to do some calculations to get the result.I had my scientific calculator in my satchel but that was outside the exam hall, I looked around and the people around me had calculators.I thought it would be fine and I would just borrow it from someone.After a while I heard the examiner speaking harsly to a guy who wanted the borrow a calculater and he was like scolding him and not allowing him.I knew I was done for....I wouldnt be able to do it I thought...I decided to take the risk, belive in His grace and I started praying..Lord,I'm going to ask the invigilator permission to get the calculator from the outside...I finished praying and when he came near stood up and asked him with little apprehension in my heart..'Sir, my calculator is outside by the door,can I get it please' to my amazement he was not the rude harsh man I heard before ...he was changed ...he allowed me with a nod..like the lions closing theirs jaws before the angel of the Lord in Daniel he dint even open his mouth but was really pleasant ...and after that he allowed the other guy to borrow also...It must be against the univ rules to send someone outside during an exam or allow communication among eachother..but Thank God ...He allowed me and by His grace I belive I did well in the test...Thankyou JESUS...YOU are my hero..in my uncertainties , weaknesses ,apprehensions and fears you are with me Lord .I just want to tell you all this:
'Trust in the Lord with all your heart and He will carry you through'Proverbs
I've got my next test on monday...pray for me...Its Marketing Management..that book I started reading just covers one module...got 5 to go..pray for our youth service on Sunday..hope he touches someone thru us...we are leading this time(its like the whole group is divided into 4 groups which gets shuffled every year..and each week one of the group leads) its been sometime since we were serious of the worship service...please pray that we are able to give our all to the Lord..

Boban and Molly....

2005-07-27T17:36:00.001+05:30

Thank God...today's exam went fine....

and for all you malus out there here is the link to the most famous malayalam comics

Boban and Molly

it the life at a rustic malayalee village from the point of view of a young brother and sister twin team...so now all of ya have fun..

came across this pic from my MBA class...

People from my MBA class Prasanth,Shabana Divya,and me anuj too seen
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All things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28

August 6th is Hiroshima day...please do click on the link given on the right panel
and send a peace message to Japan..God bless ya

Psalm 127:1&2

2005-07-25T23:48:00.000+05:30

The house..
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Verse of the Day:
Except the LORD build the house, they labour in vain that build it: except the LORD keep the city, the watchman waketh but in vain.
Psalm 127:1

This is an interesting article I read today on rediff
The truth about sex!!
It talks about the writer's apprehensions about her daughter's life...

Friends again!!

2005-07-23T11:36:00.000+05:30

Allies??
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It's been a love-hate relationship all the way...
ignoring the Americans during the Cold war...then the American's pampering of Pakistan..ah now it seems both the countries have had enough....
but there are things we should keep in mind...

1.Pakisthan, even though being ruled by an illegitimate govt(military dictatorship cant be legitimate or democratic) is being given most favoured nation status as a non-NATO ally which brings it in par with Israel which is disturbing...given the fact that they have been supporting terrorists who infiltrate into the Indian side of Kashmir.
2.The US keeps arming Pakisthan with sophiticated weapons systems and platforms including the F-16 and PC-3 Orion aircrafts...
3.And they(INDIA and USA) have decided to work together in multi-national peace keeping missions but it's not given clearly under the United nations..this should make compications for Mr.Singh once he is back in India because most Indians including yours truely sees the UN as the legitimate peace keeping authority.
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There are brighter things too.... the good news is that the US has lifted sanctions against us imposed on the wake of the Pokran Nuclear tests..which could be benificial for the civilian use of Nuclear energy in India.Above all the US administration is a 'God fearing'one.(please dont take me for a zionist..I may have somethings in common with them but..)
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Hope this turns out to be benificial for both the countries....
I got this online while searching...an American citizen's views of wht is going on between India and the US...
Admiral Quixote
I guess he is thinking the same way as I do for the most part..

and now to some movies and history...this is the poster of the movie that isnt released yet "Mangal Pandey" It is about India's first war of Independence (also know as Sepoy mutiny to the British)...

Mangal Pandey
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so that is it too long...should be getting back to my books
got to read a lot for exams..pray for me please...and hey one more thing
I am not a Pakisthan hater....I love the people of Pakisthan infact I believe that being an Indian makes all Pakisthani's my brothers...
God bless them
God bless us and the Americans too...
peace

ah...and here are the results for a quiz a took on the net
do you think I am like that...lol

Your soul is caring.
Other people are your concern, even if you
don't know them. If you see a person trip you
worry is he is okay. You put your loved ones
first and you're very mature. When someones
sick you're nurturing and always try to help
family and friends when failure strikes them.
You can be called the motherly one, if you are
in a group of people, which doesn't have to be
bad. Love is something that's already in you
and you have a lot to give whether you believe
it or not. Your friends probably love you very
much and come to when they need help since
you're reliable. People can feel secure with
you and generally like you.

How is your soul?(pics)
Quizilla

Popeye the sailor man

2005-07-20T23:23:00.000+05:30

This is a repost from my Xanga blog....A fren of mine reminded me of this
and now it is here...
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this is Popeye the Salior man...he isnt pretty but is lovable isnt polished but chivalrous...is everything that is funny and worth enjoying....
Here he comes POPEYE THE SAILOR MAN
:silly:

I was feeling bored and hitting flies when I came across this old comic book I had ...Popeye the salior man...
I always wanted to be strong as him trashing all the bullies in school....:laughing:
anyways...this is food for thought....it isnt on looks always but on character that u cut the niche...

to hell with terrorism

2005-07-12T23:07:00.000+05:30

I love my country.......
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I deeply condemn the July 7 terrorist attacks in London and the failed fidayeen operation in Ayodhya on July 5.My heart goes with the grieving familes of terror victims in India and in Britain.Terrorism is a global menace which should be defeated by the civilised world.It does not gain authenticity even if a country promotes it.As men, we should have the willingness to accept the fact that anyone who spreads terror is a terrorist threat be it a Christian,Muslim,Hindu,Jew or Sikh inspite of our religious affiliations and beliefs.

Terrorism is weapon of the weak.It should be treated an abomination and not be glorified.

This is an article written by Mr.KPS Gill a retired Indian Police Service officer,
this is a must read of anyone who is interested in Administration and Governance.
The article gives many reasons for the people,the administration and the media in London to be proud of and many for those in India to check themselves and learn from their mistakes.
A study in Contrast- KPS Gill

I salute the Indian para militaray forces who foiled the attack on Ayodhya a disputed site(between Indian Muslims and Hindus) that is held by the govt of India.
May the Lord, give them more strength to defeat the forces trying to break the peace in my country.

Jai Hind

Master's in Being an Alcoholic............lol

2005-07-08T12:59:00.000+05:30

By God's grace I had cleared the test for Income tax and Excise officer last month
and tomm I have a computer test for that..I pray that if its His will that I may get it...keep me in ur prayers
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and hey this is wht my friends send me....
clearing the one who sent isnt doin MBA..lol
he's kinda angry with his team leader at work who's an MBA
it is funny though
thought I'd share it

MBA....lol
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the test was fine by Gods grace..thank you Lord

The righteous shall flourish like the palm tree: he shall grow like a cedar in Lebanon. Psalm 92:12

2005-07-06T11:00:00.000+05:30

Cedar of Lebenon
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I guess this Psalm is teaching me a lot...Look at how much the Lord will reward you for your righteousness...to claim the blessing we should be righteous,look at the tree in the picture..see how lush it is...look at the tree trunk and look how beautiful it looks...the Lord promises a lot for our righeousness

Another verse that worked wonders in me when I was in undergraduate class was

Psalm 37:4

Delight thyself also in the LORD: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

All these verses speaks of the importance of fullfilling our duty if God were to bless us yes,God does not need our help to bless us..but to demand a blessing from HIM we need to be righteous....

I wanted to put a photo of the Palm tree too..but there are about 800 species of the the palm tree..but one thing is certain most of these are single trunk trees which grow to be really tall...the coconut tree common in my state is an example and the palm tree in the middle east too are tall and stout...there are a lot of info about the palm tree in these sites

The Palm Tree
The Palm Tree
The Palm Tree

The Right Stuff

2005-07-04T11:14:00.000+05:30

The Shuttle
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NASA Space Shuttles have always been a matter of intrigue and imagnination...even after the the tragic end of Columbia....
I read an article a few days back on the software that takes the incredible machine to orbit and the lives of the men and women who code...it sounds a lot different from the Hip happening software coders!!!no offence meant here...
the article says that almost all coding groups expect Lockheed martin's shuttle software group.....make a lot of errors which are found after delivering the s/w product...
and the reliability of Lockheed's software as 99.9%...
the article makes interesting reading if u r in the industry or an aspirant or someone who wants to leave..lol

read the article here....
they write the right stuff

Thinking of the God who gave man the intellect to attain such capabilities
left me in awe of the fullness of God's wisdom and glory
Amen!!

No Doubt

2005-06-29T21:30:00.000+05:30

His eye is on the sparrow
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Its been 9 days since I posted a blog
some sweet 'n sour things happened to me..
I was down with fever for a few days
I got my first sem results and I lost a paper though God helped me to clear all the 7 outta 8..the paper I lost I've sent for revaluation and Scrutiny GOD willing will
clear that too...
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I was sitting at home one day and was kinda down
it was then my good fren Einstein gave me this CD by petra
No Doubt..the lyrics touched and healed me
Praise God..the video is available free at their site
the link is here
No Doubt video
you could also get more wonderful audio and videos of their songs
and their awesome testimonies
here John Schlitt
this actually is the homepage of the lead singer
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the lyrics are here
There are times when you feel like you can't go on
There are times when you feel like giving in
And there are times when you feel like you can't try anymore
There are times of trouble in believing
This test of your faith will last
As long as it takes to pass
Till you have no more doubt you'll endure
And your faith will emerge true and pure

chorus

No doubt it'll be alright
With God it'll work together for good
No doubt in the end it will be understood
No doubt it'll all work out
With faith He can move any mountain for us
No doubt in the power of Jesus
And after all is done we find out
All we really need to have is no doubt

There's a time to take a reckless leap of faith
There's a time to be cautious and to wait
And there's a way of learning from the past
That this time of trouble won't last
And sometimes we want to think we know
The ways He will choose to make us grow
But it's never the way of our choosing
And we can't always see what He's using

chorus

There will be winters in the seasons of our soul
With a cold and bitter wind that chills our lives
But our faith can be building a fire
That will warm us till springtime arrives

chorus
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Mathew 10
I was comforted much by these verses Mathew 10:29-31
It talks about the tiny bird sparrow
It is just a negligble creature...something people would ignore inspite of their beauty...but God cares for it
the verse really touched me ...How much more will HE take care of me
so no matter wht ever happens dont forget that GOD is in control
Hallelujah
I came across this site that has a bible study on the sparrow
Bible study on the Sparrow
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I'm taking my second semester exams now
one over 7 more to go
got one the day after tomm..shud be reading something
God bless
Maranatha!!

Whatever!!!

2005-06-20T21:42:00.000+05:30

Steven Curtis Chapman
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This is Steven Curtis Chapman a Christian artist with Christian values and ethics...
to know more on him visit
Steven Curtis Chapman

These are the lyrics to the song "Whatever" by SCC
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I made a list wrote down from a to z
All the ways I thought that you could best use me
Told all my strengths and my abilities
I formed a plan it seemed to make good sense
I laid it out for you so sure you’d be convinced
I made my case presented my defense
But then I read the letter that you sent me
It said that all you really want from me is just

Whatever whatever you say
Whatever I will obey
Whatever lord have your way
’cause you are my God whatever

So strike a match set fire to the list
Of all my good intentions all my preconceived ideas
I want to do your will no matter what it is
Give me faith to follow where you lead me
Oh lord give me the courage and the strength to do

I am not my own
I am yours and yours alone
You have bought me with your blood
Lord to you and you alone do I belong
And so whatever
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The song goes on to say that whatever our talents are
God chose us just by His grace and not by what we are
wht a statement of faith!!!!!

Roy Carroll leaves Old Trafford

2005-06-19T10:25:00.000+05:30

Roy Carroll
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Roy Carroll has been with Man United since 2001
but the Northern Ireland International could
contribute only by the end of 2002 03 season when
the No 1 keeper Fabian Barthez picked up an injury
Roy stepped up to complete the ten appearances needed for
the first Premiership medal of his career.
Roy's new contract with West Ham looks good for him...
Any way "One man's loss is another man's gain"
Good Luck Tim Howard...

The Horn of the Wild Ox

2005-06-15T11:53:00.000+05:30

the horn of the wild ox
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I was reading Psalm 92 in my malayalam (my mother tongue) BIBLE today and I came across this wonderful verse Psalm 92:10"You have exalted my horn [a] like that of a wild ox;fine oils have been poured upon me."

Look at that animal in the pic thats an Indian wild ox called as gaur...
and look at those horns they really are symbols of strength...here King David talks about how much God blesses the righteous before the evil ones..and thats great encouragement...this man David was truely a man after God's own heart...an enviable certificate indeed!!!

I had a doubt as the KJV showed the animal as "Unicorn"...
but all other version put it as "wild ox" even the malayalam Bible put it as
"kaattu potthu" which means wild ox ..... the malayalam Bible was translated in the early centuries from the original texts.

I always feel sad for the people of our land ....we heard the Word even before Europeans did ....we heard the good news earlier but still millions of our dear brothers havent heard it yet....

I am deviating from wht I wanted to write...so people dont worry when evil people around you prosper....do keep holding to him.....God has a better plan for you ..he will never let you down...and like the strong wild ox u'll be unbeatable..
Amen!!

Read the whole Psalm here Psalm 92

A Hobbit's Tale

2005-06-14T13:34:00.000+05:30

My tall and giant frens..lol
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shortest in the group is me..lol
the others are samuel and sadha(tallest)
I've always wanted to be tall...I've been in the first row in school
had to stand first during the school assembly and PT
but...God's grace never been bullied..mabbe cause all the bullies in school were my frens....ah that was me in school .....I wanted to be tall but never regretted being short except when I lost an air force commission due to my stupid thigh lenght...but again I knew God had something better for me...far better than being a figher pilot and again......
now I find most of the gud looking girls are tall lol...(just kidding)
little ones are cute too...
pray I find a beautiful little lady hopefully not a hobbit...lol..

God's own Country

2005-06-14T00:48:00.000+05:30

backwaters tot the western border of my state Kerala
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This is for the queen of arts @ abbey road...as u expressed interest in my state..
Kerala is the south western state in India it has the Arabian Sea to its west..the Eastern Ghats to the east and the Indian Ocean to its south..the language is malayalam and people are called malayalees(Indians first)

we have a great christian heritage with 35% of the present population being Christians....In AD 53 St.Thomas is said to have landed here and evangelised his first converts......and so one can find a lot of churches centuries old on our lands

the western side is totted with back water lakes along the shore which add colour to the beauty of my land...we have a population whose political awareness is quite high
and the literacy rate in our state is 100%
and our economy is sustained mostly by foreign money as a lot of our people work abroad in the west mostly in North America and in the middle east

we have a synagogue and a small jewish population as most of the
jews have left the shores of kerala for the land flowing with milk and honey

2005-06-12T23:53:00.000+05:30

Industrial tour to Bangalore
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we had a great time in bangalore ....
I did have a fun time when I met some old frens there and
to people who dont know where bangalore is its a city in India
and its known as the Silicon Valley of India...many s/w giants including
Microsoft,IBM,Google,HP,HCL,L&T all have operations here
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Six Pence none the richer

2005-06-12T11:32:00.000+05:30

Six pence none the richer....a band I loved...
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this band is one of my fav christian bands...though they had some billboard hits
and MTV songs too they showed their character even when they did secular shows and music

here is an extact from their bio on the net
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With each encounter, they patiently tell once more the story that Nash recounted in her appearance on Letterman in August, 1999. Although Nash has never completely overcome her youthful nervousness on stage, she bravely walked over to a chair on the "Late Show" stage following her band's performance.
After asking where the band's name came from, Letterman teasingly interrupted Nash to ask if he could stop by her hotel room after the show. Nash's blank silence stopped him cold, chastening him into an apology. With that, she proceeded to finish her story.
"It comes from a book by C. S. Lewis...called Mere Christianity," she resumed. "A little boy asks his father if he can get a sixpence - a very small amount of English currency - to go and get a gift for his father. The father gladly accepts the gift and he's really happy with it, but he also realizes that he's not any richer for the transaction..."
"He bought his own gift," Letterman responded. "That's right," Nash continued. "C.S. Lewis was comparing that to his belief that God has given him, and us, the gifts that we possess, and to serve Him the way we should, we should do it humbly...realizing how we got the gifts in the first place."
"Well, that's beautiful," Letterman stammered, with uncharacteristic earnestness. "If we could just keep that little sliver of enlightenment with us, things would be so much better..."
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isnt that reassuring and isnt that wonderful....
God bless them

go to their homepage here
Six Pence none the richer

"Trust in the lord" is one of my fav songs of Spntr
and so is Kiss me

here are the words to Trust in the lord based on Proverbs 3 : 5-7

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
Lean not on your own understanding
In all of your ways acknowledge Him
And He will make you paths straight
Don't worry about tomorrow
He's got it under control
Just trust in the Lord with all of your heart
And He will carry you through

Lord, sometimes it gets so tough
To keep my eyes on You
When thinks are going rough
But when I turn my eyes up to the sky
And I hear Your voice it says to me

So child do not be weary with the troubles
Of this world I have overcome

2005-06-10T10:09:00.000+05:30

this..is how my state looks like...beautiful and serene they call it God's own country
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This day 5 years ago my grand mother died..and I'm not wrong she was the most influencial woman rather person in my life....she mothered me all those years when my mother was working....Thank God for such a wonderful person as her....she was an exceptional person for her times...was a staff nurse educated in good english schools at a time when women were barely educated in my part of the world....was strong willed and loved by all..family frieds and others....she was truly wonderful
Sometimes we dont understand why certain people are there in our lives but its only after a real long time that u understand....she always wanted me to be a wonderful person...and I hope I evolve to be one at least to my standards...

me personified

2005-06-10T00:19:00.000+05:30

Sophisticated
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Difference of Love

2005-06-10T00:16:00.000+05:30

Sophisticated
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my friend Riz sent this to me long time back
it picturises love and how people of different cultures react to this wonderful gift...
isnt it strange

2005-06-09T23:50:00.000+05:30

this dear folks.....is my Church
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Christ the Solid Rock

2005-06-09T23:43:00.001+05:30

Got this song today morning...cant stop listening to it...in fact
even learnt to play it on the guitar...
its by 4Him
Check out the lyrics

My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus’ blood and righteousness.
I dare not trust the sweetest frame,
But wholly lean on Jesus’ name.

On Christ, the solid Rock I stand,
All other ground is sinking sand;
All other ground is sinking sand.

When darkness veils His lovely face,
I rest on His unchanging grace.
In every high and stormy gale,
My anchor holds within the veil.
(Refrain)

His oath, His covenant, His blood,
Support me in the whelming flood.
When all around my soul gives way,
He then is all my hope and stay.
(Refrain)

When He shall come with trumpet sound,
Oh may I then in Him be found.
Dressed in His righteousness alone,
Faultless to stand before the throne.
(Refrain)

Daniel!!!!!!!!

2005-06-09T23:43:00.000+05:30

Today morning during my QT I read about Daniel...and how faithful he was to God even when he was in King
Nebudcadnezzer's palace...it was wonderful to see how God blessed him with health and wisdom for clinging on to him

Lord help me to keep myself pure like Daniel did!!!
Read the first chapter of Daniel in the Bible here Daniel !{v}